My story can be summed up very quickly: I’m a mess who has been saved by grace.
Hi, I’m Denise Heidel and welcome to My Grace-Full Life. This blog was started in November 2016 and has since become a daily devotional. I also write a monthly column in Forsyth Family magazine under the same name.
I am a recovered prodigal. Long story short – I became a Christian when I was 16, and at the first significant trial I faced as a Christian, I failed miserably and walked away from the church entirely when I turned 18.
I didn’t abandon my belief in God. It’s just the further I drifted away from Him, the more I loved my own way.
But just as the prodigal son returned to his father, so I returned to my Father.
Though I maintained my belief, I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus. The best way to explain it is like this…. I knew I had the Holy Spirit living in me. However, I relegated Him to the guest room of my heart. I didn’t let Him live within me. I heard Him tapping on the door from time, clearly asking me to invite Him to the living room of my soul. But I got very good at ignoring the tapping.
Until I wasn’t so good at it anymore.
I tried it my way for the better part of 18 years. Eighteen years during which I made poor choices. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t have a dramatic conversion story. On the surface, I was a pretty nice, well-rounded woman.
But I know the real me. The selfish me. The me who made bad decisions. The me who can mentally beat myself up like nobody’s business.
When I married my second husband, Wayne, I started going to church again. It was a superficial return to my faith for several years until I just got sick and tired of being lukewarm.
I wanted more. I wanted to stop relying on myself and start relying on Jesus.
Learning to listen to God, talking to God, reading His Word, getting to know Him, thanking Him every day for His countless blessings, asking forgiveness… all of this has led to the most Grace-Full days of my life.
Life isn’t perfect, but I’m in the hands of my perfect Savior. The Holy Spirit has been unlocked from the guest room and taken up full residence of my heart. I love Jesus with all my heart, and He comes first above all.
I’ve lived without Him and know that life is so much sweeter when He is included.
Today, I share my home in Clemmons, NC with my husband Wayne, a dog, and four cats. I’m a Jesus girl, first and foremost…. After that, I’m a wife, a mother, a writer, and a coffee snob in that order. And a little bit of Crazy Cat Lady too, but writers are supposed to be cat and coffee people. Right??
I’m so thankful that you’ve visited My Grace-Full Life! Thank you for reading!