Barely a week earlier, I had been in the emergency room in the worst pain I’d ever known.
I was absolutely terrified of another stone showing up.
Especially the idea that I may end up crawling down the aisle on Vicodin.
Thankfully, that was my one (and praying only) experience with kidney stones.
I wish I could tell you that I went to God in prayer; but the only prayer at the time was more like a, “Please, God, don’t let that happen again” rushed prayer as I consulted the internet for advice.
As my walk with God has grown and I’ve become stronger in my faith, I wonder how I ever did life, or faced a kidney stone, without Him.
I wonder how I could have excluded Him from so many moments when I could have gone to Him for comfort and peace; when I could have sought wisdom and counsel from His word; when I could have celebrated milestones and accomplishments with Him.
I’m not beating myself up about it, because I know what matters is that I have a relationship with Him now… it’s more a sense of wonder of how I could have been so blind.
The truth has always been in front of me.
But I got so used to doing life my way, it didn’t occur to me to consult the One who gave it to me!
Isaiah 50:4b says, “Morning by morning he wakens me and opens my understanding to his will.”
And a few verses later, 10b says, “If you are walking in darkness, without a ray of light, trust in the Lord and rely on your God.”
As I remember the week before my wedding, I realize how much has changed in six years.
The girl who was in darkness has trusted God.
No matter what, I trust in Him.
He gives me new opportunities each day to get to know Him better and learn what He has planned for me.
Today, as you pray, consider where you were a year ago; five years ago; or more.
Do you see how the hand of God has moved in your life?
Thank Him for what He’s done and how He’s blessed you and how He’s not given up on you.
You’re still here and He still has a plan!